nothing but gloom in the air
First rain of the season has conveniently brought back my SAD, at least now I don’t need to wash my car; one less thing I need to do. All of the sudden, it is fall.
I miss falls in Davis, the warm leaves and the happy climate, my favorite tree leaves turning completely yellow, all the baby animals that were procreated in the spring are all grown up and out and about, my rain boots put to use, not-too-costly-yet procrastination. Hell, I miss falls in high school, homecomings, thinking about nothing all day but unrealistic responsibilities like homework and tests. I don’t feel the same as before, there was a specific landmark in my life that signaled the beginning of adulthood. I’m not too thrilled, but I guess that’s part of it — doing what needs to be done even when I don’t really want to do it. I’m starting to understand why people get married. When independence becomes inevitable, the pace of life becomes unique. Things that matter have a way of fading into the background and unnecessary problems become non-existent. And eventually you’ll want someone around, not someone to take care of you, but a partner to share life with; a person you can hang out with until you drop dead, pretty much. I miss many things and many people; but I’m just glad there is someone around I don’t need to miss.
4 months ago • Notes